Six (or is it seven?) years after being frozen, our two little embies thawed! I named them Brooklyn and Faith. I was in awe and surprise...all morning I kept fearing the call that would tell me not to bother to come in for the transfer because neither embie had made it. When the RE told me that they had both survived the thaw, I replied that I hadn't expected them to. His reply: "I have learned not to have expectations when it comes to you and your husband." Our little boy defied all expectations. Two embies, each with a 70% likelihood of thawing both made it. Maybe this cycle itself will also defy all expectations...
Ah, but there I am getting away with myself with that dangerous thing called: HOPE. I have not really done a good job of "Learning To Let Go." No expectations. What will be, will be. I leave it in G-d's hands, since clearly I've no say in the outcome! (Though that doesn't stop me from eating my millet congee and sleeping on my left side and all those other things I do that are really just away for me to pretend that I have some control over the matter!!!!)
So now I am in the dreaded 2ww...though the nice thing about a 5-day transfer is that I only need to wait 9 days....Saturday, August 3rd. I'll test at home on the 2nd. Until then, I wait...and hope.
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here from ICLW. hoping with you that your two embryos make a go of it! take care xo.
ReplyDeleteHere from ICLW. When you find yourself unable to hope, know that a stranger in MD will be hoping for you. Sending light and peace to you during this time of uncertainty.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! I need all the support I can get!! :)
DeleteHello from ICLW! Stick embies, stick!!
ReplyDeleteHello from ICLW! Congrats on the successful thaw! All the best on the 2ww. Yes, that dangerous thing called hope... I know all about it. But I would rather have IT than nothing at all:)
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeleteYes, better than nothing at all...the only thing that keeps me going, but then it's dangerous for that very reason.
Hooray for Brooklyn and Faith! Glad they survived the big thaw. Here's hoping they're settling in now, finding a good squishy bit of lining to hold on to and make home for 40 weeks!! Deep breaths :)
ReplyDeleteThanks, Anne! Those deep breaths are so necessary!! :)
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